My name is Sami D. I am a transgender female. From my birth my body has been examined and declared by all to be deficient to some capacity. To be lacking in hormones that I was supposed to have. That I would never be able to have children of my own without special treatment. That what would be best for me is to hope for testosterone to restore what was supposed to be me and my perceived gender.
With that in mind at some points in my life I had questioned my gender, not to any serious degree more so than passing thoughts that I could have easily been born a woman and it might have been better for me. This thought has stuck to me through the years without much further introspection, so too has the time when I first heard about people who were like me. Those who thought their gender does not match the one assigned to them at birth. Until recently I prescribed my feelings about my body to my sexuality, as somebody who considered themself a bisexual cis male (but really loved being a bottom.)
However through experiences with poly partners, one who was genderqueer, and a night out with a cis female, I found myself now very uncomfortable with that assumed role. I had an out of body experience realizing that something is off with my sexual encounter with the cis female. My genderqueer partner at the time with whom we played with gender a lot, and had developed our own unique form intercourse. That experience provided me with the vantage point whereupon I could see myself more clearly. They allowed me to understand the truth of my identity, removing sexuality as a lens to view the world altogether.
I never needed to explain myself, but I am so grateful for the support of my friends this far. I want to give you this, so you might give me the strength to carry on my transition.I am also a IT person, Judoka, partner, friend, sibling, my parents’ child, and hard worker.