And lube. And pain. And self love. And frustration, anxiety, impatience, and a shocking amount of more blood. Plus I found a coffee-flavored Ensure, so there was a lot of that as well. I woke up crying, then woke to a drug-induced calm. I took the picture featured at the top of this post and […]
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Dysphoria in a Box
These past few weeks have been kind of rough for me transitioning-wise. And it wasn’t until last week when I finally could express why, both framing my sense of dysphoria and honestly saying why and what is happening without just saying, “I’m frustrated shit isn’t happening fast enough for me.” I imagine it the way […]
A Life Tattooed
For me my first step toward transitioning was when I stopped taking testosterone. This act grants me a fair amount of autonomy over my body and over my transition. It grants me the freedom some trans women do not have, the freedom to see testosterone as merely another medication for another person. That concept of […]
Through Metaphor
In my youth, what started as electricity, a faint current running through with lights being turned on, became a systematic hammered and hawed sense of self until only some sparks popped out on occasion for a few careful viewers that there was something more running behind the scenery of pleasantry. I lived in movies, dolls, books, […]
Enough is enough is enough is enough.
You know what? I guess I have to say it, but enough is enough with the whole respecting my identity, preferred pronouns, and that doing this isn’t a walk in the park no matter your station in life. I’m really sort of tired of the whole treating me like a person and not a disorder. […]