And lube. And pain. And self love. And frustration, anxiety, impatience, and a shocking amount of more blood. Plus I found a coffee-flavored Ensure, so there was a lot of that as well. I woke up crying, then woke to a drug-induced calm. I took the picture featured at the top of this post and […]
Author Archives: Sami
Notes on Vaginoplasty
Getting it scheduled Most US surgeons will need the two letters from therapists who have treated you for dysphoria. They also typically require a year on HRT before scheduling, including a decent amount (~6-8 sessions of laser from my experience) of hair removal therapy (laser, electrolysis, etc..) You will also need to fill out an […]
Fear, Patience, and Judo
It’s honestly been a long time since I have had a night like tonight when I have had a great deal of time to think about how my transition is going and what still troubles me. I think the thing people honestly do not get about how being trans and openly transitioning can affect a […]
Dysphoria in a Box
These past few weeks have been kind of rough for me transitioning-wise. And it wasn’t until last week when I finally could express why, both framing my sense of dysphoria and honestly saying why and what is happening without just saying, “I’m frustrated shit isn’t happening fast enough for me.” I imagine it the way […]
V for Valerie
For years I watched “V for Vandetta” and would tell my father V is the woman who wrote the letter Evey reads when V is torturing her. V is Valerie. I said this before I knew that the Wachowskis were trans, I said this before I came out as trans myself. But today it seems […]