For me my first step toward transitioning was when I stopped taking testosterone. This act grants me a fair amount of autonomy over my body and over my transition. It grants me the freedom some trans women do not have, the freedom to see testosterone as merely another medication for another person. That concept of […]
Author Archives: Sami
A Hormone Trip
In the beginning there was serenity and warmth. I sat there in the living room for what seemed like the first time. The sun glowed on the crimson and earth tones carpet. I smiled and absorbed the world again. What happens when I stopped taking the testosterone I don’t produce at first makes for a […]
Through Metaphor
In my youth, what started as electricity, a faint current running through with lights being turned on, became a systematic hammered and hawed sense of self until only some sparks popped out on occasion for a few careful viewers that there was something more running behind the scenery of pleasantry. I lived in movies, dolls, books, […]
Enough is enough is enough is enough.
You know what? I guess I have to say it, but enough is enough with the whole respecting my identity, preferred pronouns, and that doing this isn’t a walk in the park no matter your station in life. I’m really sort of tired of the whole treating me like a person and not a disorder. […]
A Leaf In The Wind
When Amanda picked me up, I was nervous. They reminded me to breathe, and helped get the nurses’ attention when we needed to check in since apparently the office was closed for lunch (and “No Knocking on the Window!” Despite the FedEx guy doing just that.) They held my hand in the examination room, took […]